Recovery for me literally means being present every second. To slow down , be patient, and almost graceful with whatever I do. So far, I’m nine days free of bulimia. I don’t know if I should say I’m I’m in recovery completly because I’m counting calories. Counting calories let’s me feel in control for once, instead of feeling so out of control. If I slow down and eat healthy I don’t feel bad or gross. I don’t eat triggering foods for myself anymore that I know I over eat and then purge. Every second. Every meal. Every time I go pass the kitchen. Everytime I get hungry, I just slow down and take time to prepare or cook meals. Sometimes I didn’t even think about what I was going to eat, I just ate. And that’s when I over exercised. I look at the crazy cycle I was in, what was I doing? It was insanity. I feel so much more free. Somedays i don’t count cals, and some days i do! I don’t ever go below 1500 and some days I eat almost 3000 on a cheat day. I let my cheat days come naturally now. I go out with my friends when I want to and don’t even contemplate about not going out because of food. I’m just living one second at a time. Atleast for now:) It’s a start. I lost 6 lbs also just being healthier.