Recovery for me literally means being present every second.  To slow down , be patient, and almost graceful with whatever I do.  So far, I’m nine days free of bulimia.    I don’t know if I should say I’m I’m in recovery completly because I’m counting calories.  Counting calories let’s me feel in control for once, instead of feeling so out of control.  If I slow down and eat healthy I don’t feel bad or gross.  I don’t eat triggering foods for myself anymore that I know I over eat and then purge.  Every second. Every meal.  Every time I go pass the kitchen.  Everytime I get hungry, I just slow down and take time to prepare or cook meals.  Sometimes I didn’t even think about what I was going to eat, I just ate.  And that’s when I over exercised.  I look at the crazy cycle I was in, what was I doing?  It was insanity.  I feel so much more free.  Somedays i don’t count cals, and some days i do!  I don’t ever go below 1500 and some days I eat almost 3000 on a cheat day.  I let my cheat days come naturally now.  I go out with my friends when I want to and don’t even contemplate about not going out because of food.  I’m just living one second at a time.  Atleast for now:)  It’s a start.  I lost 6 lbs also just being healthier.